This little transparent jelly fish is raising its hand too! A woman came to consult with me last week on this very topic.
Meredith took a deep breath and we opened her records. In her life, she had grown accustomed to shouting her truths to be heard. This was the only reliable path she knew to ensure speaking her mind and staying true to herself. But being on a path of consciousness, she no longer resonated with this way of communicating. The problem was that when she became “vulnerable” she could no longer speak her truth.
She was stuck in this dichotomy. Yelling allowed her to be true to herself, but also cut her off from her heart. When she was connected to her heart, she could no longer speak her truth.
We dove a little deeper into the records. An image of her mother came up and how Meredith would not speak her truth out of fear of hurting her mother’s feelings. Meredith acquiesced. Yes, that was definitely the case. Her mother had joined in partnership with a man, a “controlling prick”, and Meredith could see as clear as day all his manipulative schemes. All she wanted to do was point them out to her mother. But her mother would cling to him as if he, we will call him Bill, were her saviour. How the hell could her mother not see what he was doing? So, she learned to shut up because it was too difficult for her mother to hear the truth. In fact, her mother had the habit of not speaking her own truth to appease and accommodate Bill.
This habit of not speaking one’s truth to accommodate someone went up her mother’s ancestral line. It was nine generations of women not speaking their truths to appease partners and the cultural pressures of the time. That is a long time! So, we took a moment to clear all the energetics related to this long standing dynamic.
Hmmm, thought Meredith, the last time I really was connected to my heart and spoke my truth from a place of vulnerability was when I was in the army. They completely shut me down with their insulting mysogynistic attitudes.
I checked with the records. “Well, the army is your Bill.”
If you have your own version of “Bill” in your life that has managed to shut down your capacity to speak your truth in full kindness and safety, just PM me for a consultation. We can definitely free up the energetics and allow you to fully embrace the freedom of being your full self. Learn more at glowingsnake.com Looking forward to riding the records with you! love Julie
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